Day 3 — Your parents

[scaredtobreak]

Fuck, I suck at these kinds of things.

I'm not sure I can ever fully explain what it was like to be your daughter.  In the end, I never really wanted for anything as long as the only thing I wanted was money, clothes and material possessions.  I could have anything and everything that I asked for, except for your time and attention. 

It took me awhile to realize that it had nothing to do with me and everything to do with you.  You never wanted a child but you gave into pressure from someone else who said that you needed to have a daughter or a son to leave some kind of legacy behind.  In some ways, I wish you would have just stuck to your guns and been content with your reptuation being all that you left behind but I don't really hate myself that much.  Not fond of myself at times but I'm glad that I'm around at the end of the day.

Growing up, I realized I was lucky to have my grandparents.  It's probably only because of them that I didn't end up worse or dead somehow.  It never had anything to do with you.  I feel about as much for you as you feel for me.  At one time, I wanted nothing more than your approval, love and affection but I'm okay without it now.  Mainly because I'm done trying to get it.  To me, you're just these people that I know casually, like a distant relative you hear stories about once in awhile or something like that.

It wasn't all bad because I learned a lot of things from being your daughter.  I learned how to take care of myself, I learned that I'm capable of surviving on my own without help from anyone else.  I also learned how to appreciate the relationships I did form because I know that they can go away at any time.  That blood doesn't mean anything in the end because it doesn't guarantee a connection and a sense of love; I found that outside of my family.  Doesn't mean I'm always great to the people around me but I know I try a lot more than you two ever fucking did.

You should know I'm working on being happy now and I'm starting to build some kind of life for myself instead of waiting in an empty home.  My place is full of other people who like me being around and they care about what happens to me at the end of the day.  Just as much as I care about what happens to them.

I'll think of you guys once in awhile and I hope you're doing okay wherever the hell you are now. 

♥ Harper

Comments

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

You all right babe?

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm cool.

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

...Kay.

You hungry?

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

...Yeah.

What do you want to eat?

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

I was thinking of firing up the grill before it gets too cold to hang out on the roof. Some dead charred cow and chicken meat and some beers sounds pretty good.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Fuck yeah. I'll prep a couple of potatoes for us to throw on there too.

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

I'll throw together the secret Franklin family recipes for chicken marinade and steak seasoning together.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Do I get to know this secret Franklin family recipe?

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

Well you are a Franklin now.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

You think you could handle it? ;)

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Being a Franklin or the recipe?

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

The recipe. Though, now that you mention it...

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

I handle you just fine, don't I?

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

Yes ma'am, you do.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

So you can show me the recipe while I get the potatoes ready.

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

Yes ma'am.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Ooh, keep talking like that and supper will happen later than sooner.

[low-as-youcango.livejournal.com]

Aaaaaaaaand that's suppose to discourage me?

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

No, I know better.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

I got three words for ya, sweet pea: good for you.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Thanks? I guess I'm trying to get over it.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

You never really get over it. You just...get through it, and you find something better on the other side.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

That's what I'm trying to believe in.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad. Trust me, it's a good thing.

So listen, speaking of your new beginnings...I didn't get to be there for the wedding, and I want to get something for you and the lucky guy. A wedding present. So I want you two to name it.

Literally. Money and the forces of good and evil are no object.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Uh...really? You don't have to get us anything.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

I want to. Seriously. Talk it over with the mister, and let me know. I could...buy him the garage he works at? Get you kids...I don't know, a yacht? How would you like to vacation in a really gorgeous celestial dimension? I'm really not kidding, anything you guys want, and it's yours.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

...What about a protection spell for him? Maybe a spell that zaps someone who tries to hurt him?

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

That's absolutely doable. Maybe a talisman...magic bites, and think about it: you're a Slayer? Straight spell might keep you two from having fun if you get what I mean.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Because...oh.

Yeah, maybe a talisman would be good. I mean, I have super strength and all that but he doesn't have much protecting him.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

Exactly...okay, you got it.

And just so we're clear? That's not your wedding present, that's a freebie. Come up with something else, sweet pea, I want to hear big ideas.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Uh...he really likes bikes? He wants a Ducati.

I was looking at a 2010 Ducati Superbike 1198 R Corse Special Edition.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

Now you're talking! You want one, too? Bikes are fun, trust me.

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

Actually, yeah. I know they are, Lowell is trying to teach me how to ride.

[an-honest-thief.livejournal.com]

You're both definitely getting bikes now. On the condition you take them somewhere fun. It's never too soon for a second honeymoon. Or a third...our a fourth...or a fifth...see what I'm saying here? ;)

[scaredtobreak.livejournal.com]

We're not really the honeymoon type but I'm sure we'll go for a bike ride a few times.