Day 6 - Day 10 [I'm behind, shh]
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scaredtobreakDay 6 — A stranger
Dear Liquor Store Guy,
Thanks for never judging. Or maybe you just assumed all that alcohol was for more than one person but, either way, thanks.
Harper
[So very locked]Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
I really don't like writing these kinds of letters. It's not like you're ever going to read this but, on the off chance you ever do, I'm going to tell you that I don't hate you for what you did. I used to. I hated you for a long time once I realized that you didn't care for me like I cared for you.
I was young and naive, if you can imagine that. I wanted to believe that you really had feelings for me, beyond the fact that you clearly enjoyed getting me into bed and teaching me all the things you knew. That's all it was in the end, it was all about sex. I think you got a rush out of bedding your colleague's teenage daughter and I was fine with that at the time. I didn't know any better back then but I do now. Every little lie and present that you gave me was just to keep me right there where you wanted me for whenever you wanted me.
In the end, you married someone else. You married a woman who was closer to your age and I guess who you felt would be more acceptable. More acceptable than a young girl who was at least twenty years younger. I still think about you at times, which pisses me off. I wonder if you're really happy in your marriage and sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me. I wonder if you ever want me like you used to. Sometimes I imagine shooting you down if you ever tried getting me back into bed because I don't want you anymore. I've moved on.
I don't hate you but I kind of hate the fact that you screwed me up for future relationships. Now I look at everyone and wonder about their intentions. Or at least I used to because there's someone else now; someone I think I actually care about. He's the first guy I've trusted since you. I still don't know how it's going to play out but for now I'm having a lot of fun.
So, yeah, I don't hate you but I certainly won't feel bad if I never see you again.
No love anymore, Harper.[/locked]
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Dear Bonner1979,
You're pretty fucking hilarious, you know that? Plus some of the stories you've told me over the last couple years are pretty effen priceless. It's kind of a shame that you've gone on, gotten married and had a kid but it's still nice to talk to you when we get the chance.
Thanks for all the chats.
Later, Harper
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Not going to say who this letter is going to but if I could ever meet you? I'd fucking kick your ass ten ways from Sunday. I'd drag you back from Hell and then send you right there again.
I don't know much about you but I know that you hurt him. He's a much better man than you could ever be and he's done it all on his own. You never deserved him.
Seriously, no love.
[locked to Joe]Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Joe,
We don't really talk much, more or less just in passing whenever we're in the same area but I think I'd like to change that somehow.
I know that you might not really be open to the idea because of all the shit that went down with Hank. I never really meant to hurt you. In case you haven't noticed, I have a bad habit of making really bad decisions. I don't always think things through and I sure as fuck don't consider the consequences until they're slapping me in the face. I wasn't trying to ever steal her from you, I just wasn't thinking. Maybe it was the incubus or maybe it was something else but I'm actually sorry for it. I'm not really ever sorry about anything but I'm sorry about that.
Not sure I can ever make up for it but I'd like to if you're ever open to it. I think you're actually pretty awesome. You're one the first decent guys I've ever met. You've always been pretty cool to me and I'm hoping I can return the favor.
I'd also like us to be cool for Lowell's sake besides for Hank's. You two are pretty close and well, you know. I'd just like us to get along and for us all to hang out without any kind of awkwardness.
If you ever want to ream me out, I'll let you go a round or two. So yeah, we should try talking more.
Harper[/locked]
Dear Liquor Store Guy,
Thanks for never judging. Or maybe you just assumed all that alcohol was for more than one person but, either way, thanks.
Harper
[So very locked]Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
I really don't like writing these kinds of letters. It's not like you're ever going to read this but, on the off chance you ever do, I'm going to tell you that I don't hate you for what you did. I used to. I hated you for a long time once I realized that you didn't care for me like I cared for you.
I was young and naive, if you can imagine that. I wanted to believe that you really had feelings for me, beyond the fact that you clearly enjoyed getting me into bed and teaching me all the things you knew. That's all it was in the end, it was all about sex. I think you got a rush out of bedding your colleague's teenage daughter and I was fine with that at the time. I didn't know any better back then but I do now. Every little lie and present that you gave me was just to keep me right there where you wanted me for whenever you wanted me.
In the end, you married someone else. You married a woman who was closer to your age and I guess who you felt would be more acceptable. More acceptable than a young girl who was at least twenty years younger. I still think about you at times, which pisses me off. I wonder if you're really happy in your marriage and sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me. I wonder if you ever want me like you used to. Sometimes I imagine shooting you down if you ever tried getting me back into bed because I don't want you anymore. I've moved on.
I don't hate you but I kind of hate the fact that you screwed me up for future relationships. Now I look at everyone and wonder about their intentions. Or at least I used to because there's someone else now; someone I think I actually care about. He's the first guy I've trusted since you. I still don't know how it's going to play out but for now I'm having a lot of fun.
So, yeah, I don't hate you but I certainly won't feel bad if I never see you again.
No love anymore, Harper.[/locked]
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Dear Bonner1979,
You're pretty fucking hilarious, you know that? Plus some of the stories you've told me over the last couple years are pretty effen priceless. It's kind of a shame that you've gone on, gotten married and had a kid but it's still nice to talk to you when we get the chance.
Thanks for all the chats.
Later, Harper
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Not going to say who this letter is going to but if I could ever meet you? I'd fucking kick your ass ten ways from Sunday. I'd drag you back from Hell and then send you right there again.
Seriously, no love.
[locked to Joe]Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Joe,
We don't really talk much, more or less just in passing whenever we're in the same area but I think I'd like to change that somehow.
I know that you might not really be open to the idea because of all the shit that went down with Hank. I never really meant to hurt you. In case you haven't noticed, I have a bad habit of making really bad decisions. I don't always think things through and I sure as fuck don't consider the consequences until they're slapping me in the face. I wasn't trying to ever steal her from you, I just wasn't thinking. Maybe it was the incubus or maybe it was something else but I'm actually sorry for it. I'm not really ever sorry about anything but I'm sorry about that.
Not sure I can ever make up for it but I'd like to if you're ever open to it. I think you're actually pretty awesome. You're one the first decent guys I've ever met. You've always been pretty cool to me and I'm hoping I can return the favor.
I'd also like us to be cool for Lowell's sake besides for Hank's. You two are pretty close and well, you know. I'd just like us to get along and for us all to hang out without any kind of awkwardness.
If you ever want to ream me out, I'll let you go a round or two. So yeah, we should try talking more.
Harper[/locked]
