Harper Thomas

You Are 8: The Challenger

You're brave, impulsive, and gutsy - loving challenges. You act first and think later. And you're not afraid to speak up. You are confident, so much so that you can be a bit bossy at times. Whether people like it or not, you always stand up for yourself. At Your Best: You are heroic, courageous, and ready to change the rules of the world. A true leader and inspiration. At Your Worst: You intimidate, fight, or threaten to get your way. And you won't back down. Your Fixation: Lust Your Primary Fear: Being harmed or controlled Your Primary Desire: To be independent and self sufficient Other Number 8's: Donald Trump, Courtney Love, Pablo Picasso, Fidel Castro, and Rosie O'Donnell.

Being harmed is a fear? Well damn.

Dear Grandpa,

( Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) )




Dear Dreams,

( Day 5 — Your dreams )

Fuck, I suck at these kinds of things.

I'm not sure I can ever fully explain what it was like to be your daughter.  In the end, I never really wanted for anything as long as the only thing I wanted was money, clothes and material possessions.  I could have anything and everything that I asked for, except for your time and attention. 

It took me awhile to realize that it had nothing to do with me and everything to do with you.  You never wanted a child but you gave into pressure from someone else who said that you needed to have a daughter or a son to leave some kind of legacy behind.  In some ways, I wish you would have just stuck to your guns and been content with your reptuation being all that you left behind but I don't really hate myself that much.  Not fond of myself at times but I'm glad that I'm around at the end of the day.

Growing up, I realized I was lucky to have my grandparents.  It's probably only because of them that I didn't end up worse or dead somehow.  It never had anything to do with you.  I feel about as much for you as you feel for me.  At one time, I wanted nothing more than your approval, love and affection but I'm okay without it now.  Mainly because I'm done trying to get it.  To me, you're just these people that I know casually, like a distant relative you hear stories about once in awhile or something like that.

It wasn't all bad because I learned a lot of things from being your daughter.  I learned how to take care of myself, I learned that I'm capable of surviving on my own without help from anyone else.  I also learned how to appreciate the relationships I did form because I know that they can go away at any time.  That blood doesn't mean anything in the end because it doesn't guarantee a connection and a sense of love; I found that outside of my family.  Doesn't mean I'm always great to the people around me but I know I try a lot more than you two ever fucking did.

You should know I'm working on being happy now and I'm starting to build some kind of life for myself instead of waiting in an empty home.  My place is full of other people who like me being around and they care about what happens to me at the end of the day.  Just as much as I care about what happens to them.

I'll think of you guys once in awhile and I hope you're doing okay wherever the hell you are now. 

♥ Harper

Dear Bruce Willis,

You may be in your fifties?  But I'd still do you in a heartbeat.

♥ Harper

You Are Red

You are a natural leader and a fast thinker. You enjoy being in charge. You live for taking risks, and you usually end up at the head of the pack. You can be impatient with others, especially if they waffle when making decisions. You are logical and rational. You get annoyed by emotional appeals and irrelevant questions.

Probably right.